DAY by DAY

I have been homesick for my mountains since the day I moved to Florida two years ago.  But I moved to Florida to get away from the small town and "see the world", to work at Disneyworld, and to be with the man I loved. For the most part, I accomplished all three. But I felt like something was missing, something that couldn't be accomplished by being tied down, which is what I thought I wanted. And I realized that if I was THAT homesick for my mountains, maybe I should just go back home and get back to the girl I used to know. Find myself again. I have to say that the past couple days have been tough. I haven't gotten to see really anybody yet, but I DO have to take into consideration that I've only been here 2 days. Can't do it all at once. I'm taking it one day at a time. This morning when I woke up, I realized that I can choose to sulk, be depressed, I can choose to FEEL unwanted. But happiness is what I make it. It's going to take some time to find a job, the quicker the better though. And school is going to get here when it gets here.  Right now, it's time for me to just be happy, and SMILE. Surround myself with people who love me and just know that everything is in God's hands. I can only do so much, the rest is up to Him. I can't wait to get back to church. I can't wait to see my family, my WHOLE family, who I have missed so much!  I'm not a lover of change, but I will embrace it. Change is what makes you stronger. I just really hope that I can get on my feet soon. Cause I know when I do, I'll feel a lot better! And I'll start to feel NORMAL again! =) I'm excited. And I am happy right now. But like I said, I'm taking it DAY by DAY!