Goodbye....

I think if I just listen to this song throughout this whole process, it may make things a whole heck of a lot easier. I have always loved this song since it first came out in the 6th or 7th grade, and I always thought I could relate to it. But now is the real time in my life that every single word rings true. Every single one. It's Goodbye To You by Michelle Branch.   

Of all the things I believed in, 

I just wanna get it over with

Tears form behind my eyes, but I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

Feels like I'm starting all over again

The last [two] years were just pretend

And I say

Goodbye to you, goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I LOVED

The one thing that I tried to hold onto

I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems that I can't live a day without you

Close my eyes and you chase my thoughts away

To a place where I am blinded by the light

But it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time

I want whats yours and I want whats mine

I want you, but I'm not giving in this time

And when the stars fall I will lie awake
You're my shooting star....