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WOW! It's been a while....


As most of you know, I recently started a new job at Hampton Inn in Brevard as a Front Desk Attendant. It's a GREAT company!  Hampton Inn is part of the Hilton family hotels and I get a killer discount when I stay! The job is fun and it's something I have been wanting to do for a very long time.  The philosophy I have lived by for so long proves to be true every single day.  There is a reason for EVERYTHING.  There was a reason it took me this long to find a great job that I loved and there was a reason it was so easy to come by.  It just takes time! Things are finally beginning to come together for me and I couldn't be happier.  School is going well and I'm starting on my second 8 weeks even though I'm pretty much done with the only class I have.  I also started taking a ZUMBA class, which is Latin-type dance aerobics held every Thursday night at 6PM at Park Ridge Hospital. Best thing about it?  It's FREE!  I finally feel good about myself.  I feel like everything is going to be just fine with me and I just gotta keep on truckin!


But on the--I guess you could say "romantic"--side of things, I'm beginning to really resent men.  Everything that I have been told since I was a little girl is coming true about them and I really hate it.  I always said that yes, Boys Will Be Boys but that's how they were made and you just gotta roll with it.  But I never knew how much they would come to disappoint me.  Every man really is the same, no matter how they may argue that.  They are allll the same!  And unfortunately, life proved that to me.  I recently learned that when you put someone on a pedestal, they will disappoint you greatly.  There is no such thing as the perfect person and even the most wonderful people, the people who you care about the most, trust the most, come to hurt you the worst in the end.  And it hurts like hell!  But, I'm glad I learned it now instead of later. 

I will stop here and say that I do tend to wear my heart on my sleeve.  When I see something I like (and this goes materialistically as well), I gotta have it.  I go to it.  I am an open book.  I do not believe in all those silly rules about "calling after three days" or "you can't say I LOVE YOU after only a week, it's not possible" or "playing hard to get".  Well, with the last one, I guess I believe in it, but I just royally suck at it.  So I just stick to what I'm good at and wear my heart on my sleeve.  I honestly believe that's the only true way to love.  No walls, no secrets, just RAW and REAL.  Sue me.
One thing I will never be able to understand about men is why they feel the need to lie.  Why they feel the need to spare a woman's feelings by lying, when they know good and well that "the truth shall set you free".  I guess they are trying to be "gentleman like" by sparing her feelings but really....when she finds out later OTHERWISE, it hurts 10x worse.  And it's really not fun.  Like really.  Really not fun.  And one may argue that there is only one form of lying and if a person didn't point blank lie to your face, then they really didn't lie.  But oh, no.  There's another form: it's called lying by omission.  Leaving details out when they need to be said.  Sometimes, that's the worst type because it's so subtle.  Example: CHEATING.

***FINE PRINT: I'm not pointing fingers here....I've done it before and I'm not perfect.  But this is why I know it's wrong.***

Now I do realize I'm only 21 and I still have a lot to learn about life in general, especially about men.  I have come to know that I don't "have it all figured out"...not even close.  I learn more and more every day.  But I have just come to HATE lying with a passion.  I just can't stand it and I know I'm worth more.  It's not just men who have been doing me wrong, but it's people who I thought were my friends too.  I do have to give myself credit though: I have stopped letting people walk all over me.  I have learned to take up for myself and put people in their place when they need it.  Granted, I have only done it twice, but I plan to do it more if needed.  But there came a point in my life where I just stopped accepting "just enough". 

From now on, if you are in my life, and I'm talking about romantically and otherwise too, you better be treating me with respect.  You better be truthful to me, you better be loyal to me, and you better have my back.  Otherwise, you will definitely be hearing my mouth. 

That is all =)  OVER AND OUT!