I just had it on my heart to today to write about my precious baby girl, and my life's greatest blessing, Alexis Sofia, or "Lexi".
I don't know what I did without her, but I don't know what I did to deserve her either. She has blessed my life tremendously, and everyone else around her. Her smile brightens my every day and she makes my days worth living.
Last night, I laid down to bed hoping to get at least 8 hours of rest after being awake for almost 48 hours straight. Usually, Lexi would allow me to do so. I have been lucky, you see. She is a great sleeper and hardly ever cries unless she needs something. But as I would have it, it was last night she picked to cry and cry and cry. Could be many reasons: she is teething, so I think that was probably one of them. I started to get impatient. I started to resent that precious miracle in my life. I started to really despise this creature who wouldn't STOP CRYING! (I'm sure all mothers have felt that way at some point in time). We are staying with my grandmother at the moment, so she did help me quite a bit, and for that I am thankful. So this morning, my alarm clock went off at 10 til 6. I had maybe gotten a total of 4 good hours of sleep. (Yesterday I worked all day with NONE, so it wasn't such a bad day today) She stayed with my grandmother while I went to work. I texted my grandmother at 10am this morning, and she was still sleeping. About 30 minutes later I got a text saying that she was wide awake and happy as a lark! That just put a smile on my face. I was reminded that nomatter how crazy this baby makes me, (which isn't too too often), no matter what she does to frustrate me, she is the absolute love of my whole life.
Every day, and not just today, I am reminded HOW my parents were able to love me that way. How in the world did they do it? How in the world am I going to be able to do this?? Lexi is only 7 months old. We haven't even hit terrible 2's yet, and heaven help me if she's anything like me when I was a teenager. But I know deep down inside that if my love for my baby girl gets any stronger than it is right now, (and it will get stronger and stronger with each passing day) we will be just fine.
I can't, nor can probably any mother for that matter, express just how deep their love is for their children. Especially on paper. I think the song "Deeper Than the Holler" by the great Randy Travis gives a pretty good description:
"My love is deeper than the holler, stronger than the river, higher than the pine trees growing tall upon the hill. My love is purer than the snowflakes that fall in late Decemeber and honest as a robin on a sprintime windowsill. And longer than the song of a wipporwill."So God, thank you for blessing me with such a beautiful, sweet, amazing, funny, adorable, precious baby girl. My prayer is that she will grow up strong and healthy, always stay true to herself, and live her life as the woman God intended for her to be. And to always always always follow her happiness.
Lexi on her first Fourth Of July, 2012...Happy Happy angel
